Hello Happiness

It seems I found you in an impossible place

I searched far and wide…

Over mountains and streams

In and out of years

Across several decades

Feverishly chasing 10,000 things

Leaving me spent, tired and sad

I searched high and low…

And thought for a brief moment I found you

At the top of the ladder

Driving the most luxurious of cars

Living in the most expensive homes

Elusive you proved to be and slipped from my grasp

I was left holding disappointment, loneliness and lack.

I searched without…

In their compliments

In their approval

In their ever changing opinions

A mirage it turned out

Instead I found criticism, hurt and doubt.

I searched within

Diving deep into the depths of my soul

Swimming through the murk and mire

Drowning

Then settling

Sinking

Into

Stillness

There is sat for a good, long while

Making friends with regret, loneliness and loss

Doing nothing

Making friends with rage, hostility and hurt

Nothing was left undone

I made friends with all those parts of me I once denied

Until I was left with

I am

And that’s when I found You

You, who never left

You… forever by my side

In this present moment

Hello Happiness